How i cant gently tell my ex that i never gonna take her again?

they give me psychopharmake to make me want her,.. she left me hanging on for so longer while i wanted her so much.. even if it was her fam its still the same outcome... and money other things... but the worst part is i cant play real online poker... for that i never take her agaIN:: I MEAN she was awesome and everything.., and when ever i dream of doing her, its like totally different than any other women, and whenever i think of it its like she is much more present.. its totally weird, and her cuteness makes me so hot... i you know i want to do her so hard, but its weird. its totally different its like banging a teddy bear.. but to be verry honest.. i never NEVER.. gonna take her back.. how can i tell her?? i mean serioously i love poker more than anything else.. and they faked it, not to mention my brother wich i hate.. SO I NEVER EVER TAKE HER, WHATEVER HAPPENS THERE IS NOTHINGg that can happen that changes that, and that will ever make me take her again.. so how can i tell her??.. i pray to god that she read this so she knows its now all over baby